Iām not sure I fully understand the appeal of slot machines. Drop a couple of quarters into the slot, pull the lever, and see what happens. Repeat. Do it again and again. If I were to gamble (which Iām not recommending), I would gravitate toward the games that at least have some skill involved, like blackjack or poker, rather than a game that relies completely on chance. And yet, there is a certain appeal, I guess, toward spending money with the hope that there might indeed be a big payoff or at least some return for our āinvestment.āĀ
Too often we approach the Christian life, relationships, and ministry with similar expectations. We assume that if we put in enough time, effort, and faithful serviceāenough quarters in the slotāin the end it will turn out well for us. The payoff will comeāand even in this life. But surely, we donāt think that way, do we? We who are heirs of the Reformation and its recovery of the doctrines of grace? Donāt be so sure. Consider, in your most honest moments, whether youāve ever thought this way or had these expectations:
- If I raise my children in the āfear and admonition of the Lordā they will follow Christ and carry on a Christian legacy for another generation.
- If I live a chaste single life, pursuing God with all my heart, he will provide a spouse for me.
- If I follow Christ, surely Iāll be spared the worst tragedies (we expect suffering but not too much suffering).
- If I preach the gospel faithfully, people will come to Christ and the church will grow.
This is not likely to be our āconfessionalā theology but it may well be our latent, operating theology. Such a mindset reveals a subtle āhealth and wealthā pseudo-gospel whispering lies in our ear. Without realizing it, we can become captive to the lie.Ā
Not convinced yet? How do we know this mindset is operative in our lives even if only in the subterranean places of our hearts? It shows up in at least two ways. First, by our response when the payoff doesnāt come. We are surprised by suffering. We are thrown when things donāt go as we anticipated and the hidden treasure of our heart is suddenly revealed (Matt 6:21).Ā
- We descend into depression and self-pity when, despite our best efforts, we get Cs rather than As, ensuring we will not go to medical school.
- We say to our wayward child, āAfter all that weāve done for you, this is how you repay us?!ā
- We stop going to church because the so-called āabundant lifeā hasnāt materialized.
- We say, along with Saint Theresa of Avila, after she was thrown from her horse into the mud on her way to a convent, āIf this is the way you treat your friends, Lord, itās no wonder you have so few!āĀ
Second, this mentality is revealed when we realize that we failed to put enough quarters into the slot. We werenāt consistent in the discipline of our children. We have unresolved conflicts and unreconciled relationships. We squandered time online, trading the flesh and blood people in our household for blue light images. Fear kept us from accepting the promotion. What results?
- We think, āIf only I had spent more time reading the Bible with my children they would be walking with the Lord.ā
- We replay earlier decisions and visualize how much better life would be if we had chosen differently.
- Even if thereās not a big-ticket failure, we ransack our lives in anxiety and despair, searching for the ācauseā for our hardships.
- We redouble our efforts in the hope of changing the course of thingsāor we give up because it feels too late, too much water under the bridge.
Both responsesāāHey God, you owe me; Iāve been faithfulā or āOf course Iām being punished for my failuresā reveal a graceless, merit-based, hammer-of-the-law, quid pro quo arrangement with the God of the universe. Both mindsets move us away from our gracious, generous heavenly Father.Ā
So how do we turn from slot machine Christianity? How do we move away from this transactional, non-relational, A + B = C mentality in our Christian lives?Ā
Itās a lifelong process but we start by recognizing that all of life is a gift from the Lord, even the āquartersā we use. Itās not our money to begin with. Weāre not trying to earn Godās favor by drumming up faithful obedience. All is of grace, as Paul says in Ephesians 2:8ā10,
ForĀ by grace you have been savedĀ through faith. And this isĀ not your own doing;Ā it is the gift of God, not a result of works,Ā so that no one may boast. ForĀ we are his workmanship,Ā created in Christ JesusĀ for good works,Ā which God prepared beforehand,Ā that we should walk in them.
Our faithful obedience doesnāt earn us merits and our unfaithfulness doesnāt earn us demerits. We are held by God. And with this, we realize that he is not stingy. Though we might still struggle to understand the mysteries of his dark providences in the midst of suffering, he has given us Jesus, the greatest gift of all, so surely he will not withhold what we truly need (Rom 8:32).Ā
We pray to come to grips with the fact that the Christian life is a path marked by hardship and loss, no less than it was for Jesus. We are united with him in both his sufferings and his glory (Rom 8:16ā18; Phil 3:10ā11; 1 Pet 4:12ā13). We should expect both on our journey with him as well (Rom 8:18ā24; 2 Cor 4:16ā17). It is in the moments of pain and confusion when we feel most disconnected from his love, that we are actually most dearly embraced by the Man of Sorrows.
And remember, we have already won the jackpot even if we havenāt yet received it in its fullness. Peter puts it this way:
Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ!Ā According to his great mercy,Ā he has caused us to be born again to a living hopeĀ through the resurrection of Jesus Christ from the dead, toĀ an inheritance that is imperishable, undefiled, andĀ unfading,Ā kept in heaven for you, who by God’s power are being guardedĀ through faith for a salvationĀ ready to be revealed in the last time. In this you rejoice, though now for a little while, if necessary, you have been grieved byĀ various trials. (1 Pet 1:3ā6)Ā
The guarantor of this inheritance is the Holy Spirit, through whom Godās love is poured out and who gives us hope in the midst of our sufferings (Eph 1:3ā11; Rom 5:1ā5).Ā
This Christ-centered hope grounds us and keeps us from drifting into the lie that our own efforts will result in a reward for successāor punishment for failure. Jesus has already borne our punishment and he gives us his very life. Thatās not a gamble, but a sure thing. So, believer in Christ, jettison the slot machine mentality and embrace your winnings through himāeternal riches that you partake of even now as you face the hardships and griefs of life in him and with him.